Finding what makes you happy takes time.

Originally, I was going to post this post at the very beginning of the year…. Well did that happen? Nope.

This was written in January, it is now June. I think maybe fear was taking over when I told myself I was not going to post this at the beginning of the year.

Update, it is finally 2019. I feel like I have had a refresh. With school weighing heavily on my mind I have come to the decision of not continuing. During the holidays I was visiting most of my family. That being said I felt pressure to continue school when I would tell family members my thought on not continuing. Some of the responses were negative and was told it was not a good idea. Yet I did not let this get in my way of what I believe I need to do. Even though I have people I love so much telling me to continue school. I feel as if a massive weight has been lifted off my shoulders and that I am no longer trapped. I know that an opportunity is coming and I can not miss it. Even though I do not know where 2019 will take me. I plan to set my intentions and goals I have. This probably sounds like every other new year post. Yet I need to put my intentions out to the universe.

I want to state my intentions for the year, I think we should all do this. Saying them out loud or writing them down. These type of actions will help to manifest positive changes in our lives. Not just this one time but maybe every day or every week.

1. Only speaking and think positively.

2. When an opportunity rises take it and do not be afraid

3. State what I am grateful for every day

4. Have forgiveness

5. MAKE THIS YEAR KICK ASS!

I can say that I did not continue school at the college I was attending. To be honest it felt like a weight lifted off my chest. With not attending school I continued to work, I also went ahead and began to learn how to computer code. I was very eye opening but I did not feel like myself. It felt forced. I felt like this was not part of my purpose, I went ahead and paused that education to reevaluate. But I am proud of myself for trying it. After re-reading this post I had written, I can say that 2019 has been so much better than in 2018. Yet the struggle is real! And have I stuck to all my goals? Yes and no.

Still feeling lost makes it hard to come up with content. I repeatedly keep asking myself what would I want to read as the reader? Well, probably not this. But then I think to myself it is all about growth and what life is like. I am sure many people feel the same way.

I still have yet to find that opportunity that makes my soul happy. But I am very optimistic and understand that this is part of my journey.

I am posting this to possibly help someone else out who maybe feels the same way. I believe in doing what makes you happy rather than going through the motions of life.

As an inspiration for today’s post, I found this quote. I found one by Albert Einstien. He once stated, “Only those who attempt that absurd can achieve the impossible”. I like to think that maybe I am absurd, but I could achieve something “magical” one day.

And so can you.